I’m usually an even-keeled kind of person. Properly medicated, I’m a laid-back gal. There are, however, a few things that will get me riled. The major one is witnessing someone being bullied or being bullied myself.
Last night, at a meeting I was bullied by a controlling woman who is known for doing what she wants when she wants regardless of what the rest of the group says or needs. I stood up to her, we had words, she cut me off mid-argument and refused to talk it out with me, stating that she was “setting a boundary” when I think she was merely, once again, taking full power over the situation. I was left reeling with overwhelming anger, hurt, and frustration, not to mention embarrassment from the witnesses who were present.
Looking back, I was not in a good state of mind when I went to the meeting. I have been anxious about the kids returning to school today, as this major change in my daily schedule usually brings about some level of depression in me each year.
Also, like many, I have been negatively affected by the suicide of Robin Williams. It has been on my mind; has made me cry; has reignited a immense fear of my own illness, and has sent me to my knees in prayer for his family, for those who die everyday from suicide that we don’t hear about and their families, and for myself and for all who live with mental illness.
I was extremely tired and had also skipped dinner before I went. (What was I thinking?!) Before the meeting even started and she bullied me, I was irritated about something else as well.
All is all, I ignored 3 out of the 4 rules of H.A.L.T. -
Never get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired.
I always add an S. to the end of this for Stressed and Sick as well…and in my case Smoking because I am trying to quit and going through nicotine withdrawals.
Hmmmm…come to think of it, that woman’s lucky I didn’t slug her! ;)